give me a way
nana touches the back of my father
the hem of my garment
looks out of the frame
blood red nails
the hem of my garment
white lace stitched by love
at home red fingertips
as well
white lace stitched by love
like this is a wedding
as well
something someone gives me away
like this is a wedding
but my father is holding
something someone give me a way
to hold onto him now
but my father is held
now out of the frame
and yet I hold him here
touch back
(I dedicate this to all of us with the impulse to hold and be held by people who we cannot hold or be held by right now, for reasons of social distance or spiritual plane. I dedicate this to my father who I just wish I could hug, it’s a daily wish and a daily heartbreak. I dedicate this to my Nana who is living, but far away and also who it would not be epidemiologically wise for me to hug at this time. Even this christening gown made by my other grandmother the great designer exists somewhere where we can’t touch it. Towards our transformed relationship to touch. And not taking touch for granted ever. Again.)